Zeitgeist

"Taken cumulatively, the integration of the world as a  whole, particularly in terms of economic globalization and the mythic qualities of "free market" capitalism, represents a veritable "empire" in its own right. Few have been able to escape the "structural adjustments" and "conditionalities" of the World Bank, The International Monetary Fund, or the arbitrations of the World Trade Organization, those international financial institutions that, however inadequate, still determine what economic globalization means. Such is the power of globalization that within our lifetime we are likely to see the integration, even if unevenly, of all national economies in the world into a single global, free market system."

----------Jim Garrison

Today wasn't too much of a day of interest. I got up, and played on my computer and Xbox for a few hours before leaving my room to start my day. I spent the majority of the day with a good friend of mine, who is here now, staying the night. But I do have things to talk about. 

First of all, I am not all too good. Sure, I may have that attitude of myself being different of the people around me, who I and many others consider to be "morally wrong,"  but I make mistakes like everyone else, in fact almost just as much as regular people. There are some things that I am ashamed of. Things that I would take back, and do over. I am sure everyone has something like that, and that I am not the only one. Sometimes I think that my judgement on myself may be incorrect due to some of my actions, yet everything I write on my page is coming straight out of my mind and what I think and feel. It's almost as if sometimes I become another person, unknowingly. I wouldn't say I'm "complicated," but on the other hand, if I wasn't there wouldn't be a point of me being human. Everyone is complicated in there own way, it's the reason why there are so may conflicts. It's the reason why we feel what we feel and "know" what we "know." So yes, I admit that I make mistakes, and greatly regret them, but so does everyone else. 

Second of all, in no relation to the first topic, there is something that really gets me frustrated. You may have taken note that in recent posts, I have been talking about something that may have to do something about a relationship, mainly girls. They are my one weakness. As I made clear, I am single, and that doesn't  look like it will change soon. This is what I feel about relationships: I am a person of kindness. Forgiving. Determination. I am also slightly judgmental, and paranoid all the time. Typical guy traits. I guess the main reason why I am weak relationship wise is not only the fact I am different from the average "popular guy" or "bad boy," but I feel the need to share my life with someone. A need for recognition by someone who understands me, which, sadly,  may make me just as much as a conformist as most other people are. But then again, who doesn't want that one person who makes them happy? Even the mentally insane have someone, imaginary or not, that brings feelings, real feelings, into their lives, why can't we?  I don't want it to sound like I am desperate, although I guess my actions may state that I am.

Third and foremost, in no or very little relation to the other two topics, is about the other person. There is a certain act, that I have seen commonly amongst others, especially others who I consider to be special or important. You may have noticed it as well. Let me use an example:

"Hey, you. You are looking very pretty."
"No, I'm not, I'm ugly."

  Did you see it? I'm sure that you have had the same, or similar conversation with another person before, being on one side or on the other. This is something that I notice, and instantly become confused, and slightly angry. Really, why do people say that? "No I'm not, I'm ugly." It makes no sense. Obviously not, if someone is giving you a compliment about something completely opposite. I don't know, I guess it's the rejection of something positive that I see in this scenario. I am not sure what it is supposed to mean, or why someone would think of themselves in a negative way. I try my hardest to make the people special to me as happy as possible, even being happier than me. Why? Because the people I tend to consider special to me; and that isn't a very long list, mind you, deserves it as much, if not more than I do. 

That were my thoughts during this uneventful day. Please, I would love to know what you think of one, two, or even all of these opinions.  I would like to know your point of view. 

So, until tomorrow, Isaac.