"Boys don't cry Isaac, remember that. There will be times when you want to, but it's better to suck it up and keep going, no matter what."
------------------------------LaTrysha B. Olivolo (Mom)
Gosh, I forgot this existed. It's been a year and three months since I've even posted anything, and I had to delete my last post because it began to bring back memories, memories that shouldn't have happened. But enough about that; time to rant about nothing, I suppose.
How has my life been in the past year and a quarter? I have no idea how to answer that. The relationship I had failed, saddly. But that is the least of my worries. It saddens me to say that my mother passed away March 28, 2011 after her 5 year battle with cirvicle cancer. My hat is off to her, she was one of the strongest women I've ever known, and will ever know. Now and then my step-mom, Trista, and I go to the cemetary where her ashes are in a box, under a small plaque with her name, date of birth and date of death on it. I remember the day she died, I had a make-up day in school for the week we were out with all those snow days. Sometimes I wonder how it wouldhave been if I didn't have to go to school that day...
A few days before that though, I was with my mom in the hospital. She told me that her time was nearly up, and talked to me one on one about what I had to do when she passed, and how much she loves me. I think it was that talk, along with the years of my mom pushing me to be my best throughout my life, coupled with the realization that her time was nearly up, yet not dully spent, is why I didn't cry when she passed. I still haven't.
"Boys don't cry Isaac, remember that. There will be times when you want to, but it's better to suck it up and keep going, no matter what."
She told me that when I was 7.
It's been almost a year since she has passed, so my greiving has passed as well. I'm really concerned about my sister, who still has trouble with the loss. I don't blame her either, she's only 14. So young...
As for school, I'm a senior now. Graduation class of 2012!! I'm so excited to finally get out of high school. Honestly I have been growing tired of it. Although I have friends here, there are plenty of ways to keep in touch with the people I choose to keep in touch with. As for right now I'm trying to cut ties with certain people so that other ties can become stronger. It isn't working as much as I planned, but it is none the less. Slowly but surely.
Right now I'm in my 4th period class, with my classmates making an uproar over who is on who's team for this year's final engineering project. It seems I'm on a team with Domonique, Marshal, Manny and Mike. Decent team, if I had to say anything about it. Some people wanted me to be a team leader and pick people, but if I had become one I probably wouldn't have come out with the team I have now. Today is actually the first day of my second semester, and it's about to end in about 10 minutes. After that I'm going to stay after school for robotics at 6, probably get myself some Chinese food too.
I don't really have time to say anything else right now, I guess I'll upload it here in a few minutes, after I read over it. But of course, why not leave you with a question of the day?
Should I have taken the Team Leader position and picked my own team, or be happy with the one I have now? I mean, I was the first pick out of everyone, so I guess that's a good thing. What do you think?
Until next time:
Isaac C. Arreguin
